Hey you, you with the smile and the beautiful soul.... that's a lot of you, if it isn't then hey you're free to read this too :)
While I keep up the business of eventually getting round to writing an actual blog and finishing the countdown of the best horror movies and it being that time of year, surely I should but I'll inevitably end up leaving it a bit longer and it'll be so dated it might as well feature Rachel Leigh Cook....
Till then I just want to share my thanks for my friends and for the good times in the midst of a strange and peculiar time of life as Edward Norton once lamented as the buildings crumbled to the sound of the Pixies....
It's the year of my 30th birthday and as such I've had biggish plans... I had a fabulous birthday meal and a terrific tea party with some of the my dearest and closest friends. I saved big style a ton of money to go on a big family trip this summer to California for two weeks including Disney, Universal and Hollywood trips with my mum, dad and my nephew Ben.... there's been a ton of nostalgia and looking back into the past and other interesting memories and of course with that comes good and bad memories and times.
Funny though how when something this interesting and exciting happens, it always comes with a downside too.... I have IBS as far as I can tell, the doctors always say that's probably it whenever I go and it flares up and it's done it again this year, and that combined with my already active mind and form of autism... it causes me to get more nervous so that made going away interesting..... in the end I still had a great holiday, it just made preparing to go away more nerve wracking and once or twice while away made things slightly harder, like I maybe didn't eat as much or sometimes found it hard to be comfortable.
So this coming right in the middle of the summer not only affected the holiday but also made me feel a bit queasy around my birthday too and is moving on through the autumn still a bit to now, which has built up the anxiety and led to maybe a slight depression.... and all this is what it is, it sucks hard but the point I'm getting to is my friends.... whereas maybe a time in the past where this could have happened before, it would've sucked and I'll always have family and a few friends, but then the friendship base was maybe limited.
We didn't have social media and stuff so keeping in touch with the friends you did have was trickier and they didn't know as immediately what you were going through to be there so swiftly as they can now with a message or a comment on a post you post or text even.... and in the past, my friendship base has always had something but through the last few years it seems to multiply more and more to the bursting point of such fabulous amazingness that I have so many more true and wonderful friends over the years... so much more now than I ever did....
The point being, that during these hard times... any time it seems hopeless or I feel a bit down... straight away I can reach out and get endless messages and chat with some of the most amazing and beautiful people there are. The second I even think anything isn't worth it or what's the point... I suddenly picture Nesha or Ros or Chelsea beaming and smiling and offering kind words and suddenly the world seems all brand new (thanks Bryan Adams) or I can just imagine Cara doing the sad happy face she does when we meet and I'm a mush
Friends are so hard to get right, but when you're one lucky son of a gun like I am... you simply strike it so lucky and are blessed from here to eternity....
Any of you in my friendship circle... if you're ever down or worried, just reach out because I'm guaranteed if it isn't me (and that won't happen because I am so there for all of you equally) then because we all know each other of the amazing people, that those beautiful creatures will be there for you too... so never feel alone or be alone, obviously take time for yourself too but never be too quiet... always try and feel the love to make it through another day!
You are loved and I love you!
